The perfect Mormon wife in the perfect Mormon town has a secret: she doesn’t believe in God. Her husband has a secret, too: he’s in love with another man.
She’s stood by her husband for two years, tending their secrets, fading into the easy background of Rexburg, Idaho. But when she meets a man who calls himself “X,” an artist on a rambling sabbatical through the Western States, her resolve to be the perfect wife finally crumbles.
At first her affair with X is just another secret to keep. But she quickly realizes she can no longer be content with the structured, wholesome life of a Rexburg woman. Though she fears her husband’s reaction and the town’s rejection, she leaves to join X on his journey through the Rockies.
Amid mountains and deserts, surrounded by art and creation, she discovers the realities of eternity. But just as she is beginning to build a life without religion, a death in the family pulls her and X back to Rexburg. She must return to the place that created and confined her, this time not as the perfect Mormon wife, but as something monstrous to the people she loves.
What captured me was the story, but as I progressed in it I realized that this writer's prose was worthy of a more measured and slower reading. ...[Hawker's] descriptions are stunningly vivid and as worthy of praise as her storytelling skills. ...This year I read 5 or 6 novels by far more famous authors but this book is my favorite for 2012. Hands down.
-Canterbury Sales from Amazon
...Raw, sad and yet so full of hope. It's about religion and faith...intensely personal...a love story of duty and faith and passion and self. ...So many times I found myself clutching at my heart with a knot in my throat. ...Delicate and unforgettable.
...One of the most beautifully written pieces of fiction that I have ever had the pleasure of reading. ...Poignant, layered, deeply moving, what else can I say?
-Caddy Rowland, author of The Gastien Series